Words from Him

I think I had food poisoning last night/this morning. I feel incredibly weak and can't eat or sleep. I've been on my bed all day thinking and watching The Office and trying to sleep, only to end up thinking more. So I decided to continue a tid bit from my last blog.

I was talking about how I feel like I have stepped out of my life for a couple months. And though I had some good words from the Lord, I would cry a lot bc I don't know where my life is going. And I don't understand why I only have one-sided crushes and even tho i hate to admit it i want a husband. I have huge school debt and I don't make hardly any money. So like I said I stepped back from paid staff at CL. So life has been kinda hard on my heart because that's all I've known for the last 6 yrs.

Now don't get me wrong. I do realize how blessed I am by my dad in heaven and I cling to the hope of being in His presence forever. This world makes it hard. (I'm listening to country love songs as I write this. Not helping w the whole desire for a husband thing.)

All of that to say, amidst my rough patch, I received a word from the Lord from two dear friends in Christ. Up until this last yr, I never realized what it meant to hear from God. I am seeing more and more that it's found in your quiet time with Him, but let's remember that God is relationship and will use other people more often than not to speak His words to you.

A friend in Texas prayed for me and this is what she heard from Him. "Nothing you do is hidden from God! God'll reward you openly. He's pleased with your life behind doors. He smiles over you."
I don't know if that could have been spoken to me at a better time. But, His timing is perfect! So encouraging.

Another friend in Hong Kong received these words from God for me:
I prayed for you in my quiet time, and this is what i get or pray. I hope it would be encouraging to you. 'There is the favor of the Lord with you. Keep walking with Him. Your genuine heart would touch people. From your heart would also out pour of gentleness and kindness that reaches out to your neighbors. Continue to follow Him.'

Jeremiah told us that we will find him when we seek him with our whole heart. I haven't known what else to do except try to be as real and honest with God as possible and sometimes I feel somewhat convicted for seeming to tell Him he's not doing things right in my life. I want to seek him w my whole heart but don't know how. These words from Him lifted me up and rekindled the flame in my heart. I feel like im different now than I have ever been in life.

Romans 12 talks about being transformed by the daily renewal of your mind. I thank Jesus that His words are real.

So now what? There's nothing else to do but share this with other people. Again, He is relationship and becomes real in people's hearts through relationship.

THANK YOU JESUS you are unfailing. You are real. Let your light shine through me and my brothers and sisters since that's what we were created for.